Rattled, Dismayed, but Proud — Despite Tough Challenges, My Self-Awareness Breeds Sugar-Free Success

Filed under: Health — @ October 14, 2006

Today’s post doesn’t feature any SUGAR SHOCKING news. Well, not exactly. This morning’s remarks come straight from my heart, my being, my bared soul. They’re a reflection of what I’m going through.

You see, I’m really reluctant to show weakness here.

Frankly, I like to trumpet myself — or at least impress you — as “Connie, the Savvy Sugar Sleuth.” Gone are my days as “Connie, the Sugar Shrew!” who sends boyfriends packing because of her bitchiness. The fuzzy-headed, cry-babyish, angry-for-no-reason, memory-challenged, headache-ridden, heart palpitations-plagued Connie isn’t around anymore.

That sugar-obsessed Connie chick took off back in 1998 (after I quit sweets and what I call “culprit carbs”). The late ’90s Connie has been replaced by an improved version — a calmer, sweeter, more coherent lady.

But this week, I’ve been rattled, heavily tested, and ultimately amused — OK, more like made more aware.

I’m a private person so I won’t give you details, but suffice it to say that I’ve been going through a major-league, very nasty family crisis — that’s why I haven’t written many posts this past week.

For nearly a week, I’ve been suffering a kind of situation that I wouldn’t wish on anyone. The type of scenario that about 99.99% of people just never ever go through. (And no, I’m not getting divorced — in fact, if you read my About Connie section, you’ll learn that I’m single — and in fact, available.)

Frankly, because of the deep emotional, gut-wrenching pain that’s confronting me, crying doesn’t seem to help much. Escaping in a movie isn’t all that satisfying either. Exercise has even lost much of its appeal — though I did speed walk about 3 miles yesterday. I even found it hard to work so instead I’ve been cleaning my office — something that’s badly needed, given that I’ve been immersed in my book for so long.

Uh-oh, I’m committing a HUGE journalistic faux pas here. I’m downright burying the lead, something they taught us in journalism school (when I was getting my master’s) to avoid with religious conviction.

OK, here’s the lead: I’ve been tempted by sugary foods several times this week. That’s right: Yours truly has taken more than a passing glance at biscotti. This hypocritical Savvy Sugar Sleuth has thought about straying.

Hey, when out to dinner with my buddy earlier this week, I even thought about what chocolate-laden item I would order “if” I opted for dessert. It was downright absurd: I flat out said to him, “Well, if I were going to get a dessert, I would have the chocolate cake.” (What kind of role model am I to do that?)

Learn more about my temptation this week and what I plan to do about it. (These are tips that can work for you, too.)


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